Saturday, July 25, 2009

Uncomfortable in my own skin...

I'm pregnant with ONE baby. I'm happy...but it's taking it's toll. I am incredibly nauseous everyday ALL DAY long. I've been this way for two weeks. My taste buds have changed and food I loved before tastes awful. I don't know what to eat now. I've been forcing myself to eat, but it is really hard. I spend 90% of my time laying in bed. It gets really bad when I stand for a few minutes and the gagging begins. Luckily, I work from home and am able to work from the bed. I have no idea what I would do if I had a real job I had to get to.

I've tried everything to help with the nausea: ginger ale, chamomile, acupuncture tacks, eating more often. I was practically crying at acupuncture on Wednesday. I need relief. My husband is being great. Humoring me with all my whims. I still get dizzy when I stand up. I also can't rest my arms on my stomach. Weird as that sounds, it just feels uncomfortable. I have to have all body parts not touching each other. I'm also waking up habitually at 4:30AM to use the bathroom. It's like clockwork and its really sucky. It has not been a fun pregnancy.

I'm about to be 8 weeks along and it's going to be a big week! We have our 2nd ultrasound followed with our graduation from Shady Grove. I made an appointment with a Midwife, referred to me by my acupuncturist, turns out we go straight to her after our ultrasound. I'm nervous. I hope I like her. I didn't interview anyone else. I came to the decision that I want a water/home birth. I've actually always wanted a water birth even before the "Business of being Born". I think that is what is going to be best for me. I am a rather shy, anxious girl and think I would be more comfortable in the safety of my home.

Current Weight:128lbs. Lost two pounds since I got pregnant.

8 comments:

  1. i am so sorry that you are going through this. sometimes, we take the ability to have babies for granted. i know that i did. your story is heartbreaking. i will add you to my prayers.

    karla

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  2. Congratulations on your pregnancy. I actually saw your post at someone else's blog. I've been doing a lot of internet googling to see if using DE is the right thing for us. I have twin boys (genetically our own) from 7 years ago and we're trying to add to our family. I'm 42 and after 3 failed IVF cycles (resulting in one chemical pregnancy and one miscarriage at 9 weeks) I am seriously considering DE. I'm am getting good information about the success rates using DE-IVF, especially older gals like me. We only have 1 or 2 tries (using frozen sperm from DH) so I'm thinking DE will give us the best chance, because it obviously isn't working for me. All of my numbers are good, my follicles are stimulating, they're getting eggs, they're making embryos, but it's almost like the embryos aren't developing beyond a certain point.
    So congratulations on being pregnant. Look at the positive when the room is spinning and you're puking in the toilet. YOu've got a baby growing inside you and in due time all this will be over. Best wishes!

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  3. UGH! I totally feel you! I felt like that, too. 12w3d now and I am feeling normal again! Hang in there!!! I laid in the bed a lot, too. Justtake it easy...did you doctor give you anything for nausea? Mine gave me fenergen (sp??). Maybe that would help?

    Yay for 2nd U/S!!!

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  4. I hope you are all fine and dandy right now, my mothertobe had just passed that stage too. Right up to 14 weeks , she had to suffer 2 jabs of Innohep and 1 jab of Proluton each day.
    Well she is all normal now and I am comfortable too , just can't wait to show myself again to her in the checkup.

    Ohh, btw, thanks to you, now I know how old am I, everyday, with that Lilypie widgets.

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  5. IVF girl- I hope all is going well. Be thankful for your nausea-it means your pregnancy is going well. I am 47 yo and just completed 21 days ago a donor embryo transfer. This is my 2nd time around. I had a successful donor egg pregnancy (1st shot at it)4-5 yrs ago that resulted in healthy active boy/girl twins(now 4 yo). Even though we are a brown/brown & brown/green eyed couple we ended up with a gorgeous blonde blue eyed little girl (who is artistic) and brown/brown very athletic little boy. The donor was brown/green. You never know what genetics will do - I think grandparents play a big roll and now on the donor sibling registry there is an interesting article on epigenetics and the roll that has in determining which gene's are turned on while in utero.

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  6. continued from annonymous
    Anyway, twins are hard and I work full time (I have a live in au pair who takes care of them during the day). It isn't so hard in the amt of work such as the double feedings, double diaper changing but there is major sibling rivalry that goes on. I never got to just cuddle one baby because the other was always screaming from jealousy and seeking attention. Also, it is so much harder to run errands with 2 babies. With one it is so much simpler. I've worked around it but that is a whole other story. But anyway my need to see how it feels to have just one baby at a time and to possibly have a baby girl who looks like me brown/brown led me down this path of torture again. Over time and after 4 yrs of running after active twins makes one forget all the trauma one goes through to have them. Since I had to start all over again (no frosties left from my first time) I am now reminded of it all. From the drama of picking out a new donor, to the transfer itself and now this constant waiting to see my results (beta,blood hormones,sono,sac,heart) I can't believe I am putting myself through this again. As my mother said - "what are you crazy- you have one of each- why can't you be happy with them?" But now what is done is done and I just hope & pray I am as successful as you and I get nauseous too. I became nauseous in the beginning and sensed something was wrong when the nausea went away. I am pregnant and on Thursday 9/3/09 I tested 2600 on my hcgb - 19 days post transfer which is right on target. But my progesterone levels dropped (high progesterone levels cause nausea) from 29.5 on Monday to 11 on Thursday. This is after being on 1 ml of progesterone injections daily. Doctor on Thursday seems to think he saw the "black hole" of a fetal sack but this is all very scarey with the progesterone. They have increased me to 2 mls of progesterone in oil injections and the progesterone suppositories 3x p/day. I still can't seem to get my nausea back. How I crave for that nausea because it is a sign things are going well. For my 1st pregnancy I was nauseous like you are. As far as overpaying because your pregnancy took the 1st time and you have all those leftovers- cherish them- because you don't know what is going to happen the next time around. My first pregnancy was basically problem free (if you count the nausea as being problem free) - I never had any progesterone probs- back then my obgyn said she had never seen such high progesterone levels in a pregnant woman. And I expected this to be a problem free pregnancy because I have twins already and have been through this already so I did not expect any of this to be happening (the progesterone problem and the stress of it all). So IVF girl rejoice that you made it to your 12 week mark and you are nauseous - it is your insurance policy that you are having a healthy pregnancy. And be happy you have those frosties left. You see I have nothing left. I spent $17,000 and just got this one donor embryo - I feel I stole from my twins college education if this doesn't work.

    I don't mean to rain on your parade - IVF girl- I'm just jealous cause you're nauseous and I'm not. And for all those girls out there who don't have any babies yet - you must hate me because I have 2 beautiful healthy kids so what am I complaining about! And it is true - I was reading some blogs where women who had 3,4,5 kids and who were miscarrying- they were freaking out over it which just goes to show you- the loss of a baby- no matter how many you have is still a loss- a huge loss. So good luck IVF girl - may you be continually blessed with nausea!!! gratefulmom6369@yahoo.com

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