It's almost been a year...

My son is almost 1. I can't believe how fast the time goes. Why is it when you child turns 1, that people start asking you when you are going to have another? I don't like this question. I have no idea when we will want to try again or when we will even be able to, let alone if it will work.

It's not as simple as having unprotected sex...oh how I wish it were. The thought of doing ALL those fertility shots again depresses me. I have already talked to our fertility clinic about getting the same donor's eggs, so we can have a full sibling. We were able to set aside 8 frozen eggs at $1,000 an egg and when we are ready it's going to be another $8,000!!! This time there will not be a money back option, so if it doesn't work, we are going to be out of money. We were lucky once, I can't see how we'll be lucky again.

Even if I was ready to try again, it's not that simple either. I didn't know that you have to stop breastfeeding before you can try again. Breastfeeding is very important to me because of our situation so we are still breastfeeding. I am actually hoping to continue to for as long as possible. I had envisioned breastfeeding a toddler and a baby. Now baby #2 will just have to wait until my son weans, or I help him wean. Right now, I hope he continues to breastfeed until at least two, but who knows what the future holds.

I still hope that one day my period will come back and I'll get pregnant naturally. I wonder if I will ever stop thinking that. I was hoping that all the new hormones would have "reset" my body into working and I would magically start ovulating. I guess wishful thinking.


I must say before closing this post, that my son is totally worth all the headaches that came with doing IVF. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I am so grateful for the technology.